Okay. Okay. Okay.

So, I'm dating Mark. And it's been 7 months. Whew.
Most of the time has been good. Some has been horrible.
But that's how alot of relationships are, right?

1. Bringing up fights from the past is a sure-fire way to never be happy. Thanks alot Mark.
2. Doug's a cutie.
3. I have an anxiety disorder. And I'm okay with that.
4. Just not my thing. Stupid excuse.
5. Driving is the bomb.
6. People change and leave. It hurts bad.
7. World Changers is gonna be great. If I make it that way.
8. Packing's harder at the last minute.

Ohhhh, boy.

Oh, right here upon the street
Watching the city spin beneath
I couldn't help but feel like an outsider.
Lifted up off the ground
Seeing for the first time now
This is where I became an outsider.

Why am I not good enough?
I'm an outsider.
I hate the way I am.
No calls. No "come over tonight, k?"s
Everyone else is in fast-fun-mode.
I'm in another place.
I feel pathetic, and most likely look it too.

What I need to get done tomorrow:
1. Walk/bike ride with Michael C (1-2)
2. Laundry (Start at 11:20)
3. Hang out with Michael M (2-3,4,5?)
4. TCBY (10:20-10:50)
5. Pack (whenever I'm home)
6. TRY TRY TRY to hang out with a girl friend. (5-?)
7. Jazzercise (9-10)
8. Shower (11:30-12:00)

What I've Learned Today
1. Music can heal the soul, and provide entertainment for the bored.
2. School is purposeless without him there.
3. Studying PAYS OFF.
4. Photography is incredible.
5. Sometimes, you have to give some people second chances, even when they intently hurt you.
6. There are hateful, twisted, angry people in this world.
7. I need to forgive them all.

Boy in P.E. class continues to surprise me with his smoothness.
I do believe he is perfect.
He is the ONLY person I can see myself dating.
Taylor, Taylor, Taylor.
There, its out.

What I Have Learned Today
1. Gossipping always--ALWAYS comes back to slap you in the face.
2. Procrastination is cheating yourself of your full potential.
3. Soup and salad make for a light, yet enjoyably filling dinner.
4. I sure am glad I don't run track anymore.
5. Some guys are just idiots and think that girls can't play football because of a couple missed passes. Shew.
6. Maybe I've made some assumptions too quickly. Maybe some people aren't as bad as I make them out to be.

That's all.

It SUCKS being sick. Shew.
I was in pain this weekend.
Okay, so I might like someone...

The guy in my P.E. class
Roll-call spot two in front of mine
Grey New Balance tennis shoes and YoungLife tshirts
Soft flipping hair right to his eyes--perfect length
Big lips, jock body
Surprising candidate for my affection
Many hugs and long, lasting high-fives
Smile with straight white teeth
Lets you feel important
Not too loud, but friendly
The guy in my P.E. class
Stares and flirts
Not a cocky muscle in his body
Athletic and witty
Jokes and attends concerts
The guy in my P.E. class
Wants me?